Yep that’s me dancing, take a good look, it doesn’t happen often. (Pic courtesy of Kielech and company  )

Psalm 30:11 You turned my wailing into dancing; removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever.

Amen. Amen. Amen!

I am so grateful to know Jesus, my Savior. I am so grateful that he has brought me into His Kingdom. I am so grateful that Jesus gave His life for me.

When tragic things happen in your surroundings, you see things from a different perspective. My heart aches for those who are lost, who are hopeless, who are hurting beyond they capability to cope.  They need Jesus. Not only do tragic things open my eyes to all those who need to know the Lord, but they humble me before the Lord in thanksgiving and praise for His amazing Grace that allows me to saved from the dominion of darkness. 

“Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace in our time of need.”   Hebrews 4:16

Well, this is my favorite photo in the whole world and I wanted to share it with you. This picture has so much significance to me. It was taken at my cottage, which is what I would want Heaven to be like. I can’t describe to you the beauty that God reveals to me at this place. I think this photo captures so much of His awesome creation. The water ripples as the toes dip into the still, cool lake. The reflection creates a mirror affect and holds on to the meaning of dangling your feet into the clear fresh water. As a child one of my favorite things to do was stick my tiny feet into the water and barely escape the nibblings of fish. Praise God for His works! Enjoy!

Finals Finals

Finally, it’s Finals.

Finally, the end is in sight.

Finally, one more final to dominate.

Finally, I spend every lasting second rote memorizing.

Finally, the month long break approaches.

Finally, three more semesters left.

Finally, no more Cason.

Finally, Christmas!

Finally, it’s Finals.

Sometimes I wonder what crazy plan the Lord has for me. How do I fit into His plan? But it has been good, I am okay waiting, being patient. I don’t know that I am going to have a huge revelation about what to do this summer, but I do know that the Lord has been persistent in putting on my heart to give my summer to Him in inner city ministry. I just don’t know which one, how to explain to my parents, and how to convince them that God will provide financially.  Also, how does this obeying the Lord above your parents but still honoring them thing work? And when do I tell my parents I don’t think I am suppose to be a teacher and that I am going to do something in full-time ministry… hmmm. I am excited to see what God does, whether or not I am teaching or in another country or at a camp or in an office.

Today is the last day of tutoring. (However, we are all taking a trip to Milwaukee for 5 days.) It has been an interesting 7 weeks. I definitely thought I would gain more insight about teaching and grow as a teacher. But I didn’t, not as much as I thought would. Instead, I grew spiritually. I took leaps and bounds forward, and then some backward… but as long as I continue forward I think that that is part of the walk.  For the first time I have experienced being Christ’s birde.  For the first time I have recognized spiritual warfare. I have never been so lonely and so complete at one time. If that makes any sense.  I still don’t understand fellowship and how our brothers and sisters are suppose to fit into the picture. But I do know that I need them to fight with me in the Lord’s Army. For the first time, I have recognized Christ shining through me. Well I didn’t recognize it at first, but the more I reflect on things, I realize that there is no way that it was me. I am blown away by the way He uses me without me even knowing it. That His characteristics shine through, only by His grace, what a blessing! I am content with Him planting seeds and me not trying to save the world…hehe! I have also realized that I am terrible at guarding my heart, I am NOT ready for a relationship…much less a husband.  I still don’t know how to deal with my loneliness, I can’t really explain it. It’s not about having friends or people to hang out with. But more about discussing the Word, praying, sharing, listening, and encouraging. I have been blessed with rich quiet times, but I think that we need brothers and sisters to discuss and push eachother deeper.  And not to mention the fact that we NEED brothers and sisters to fight with us and for us along side the Lord.  So yeah, summer isn’t quite over, but it seems that it is slowly coming to an end. I will leave you with this…

Imagine and hear Jesus whispering this into your ear.  Gentle and merciful touch.

” Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” ~ Jesus          Matthew 11: 28-30                                                                         

So I haven’t updated in a while. I have been in the dumps. A little sad, a little worn out, and lonely.  But I am fighting through it.  With God by my side fighting for his daughter.  I have been learning new things, whether or not I like to hear them. Although the distractions have been dificult to combat, plus old temptations that I have not had to deal with in years.  I heard a song today that caught my ear. The lyric was something like this:

“I get on my knees to get back on my feet again”

And so, that is what I am doing. Toodles!

I am in Love! Never have I experienced such a relationship as this. This is not a new relationship, in fact it has been in the works for years now. But just within the last few months, it has become a romantic relationship. One that I would have never imagined. I can only pray that each and every one of you will someday or are experiencing a love this beautiful. The gentle wispers of his voice as it softly blows across my face. The love notes left in special places close to my heart. His heart for me and the compassion he continuously shows me that gently brings me back to him. The commitment that he has made to me that I can trust in, that I know will never and can never be broken. Only this man could be so perfect of a lover. The greatest thing is that this is just the beginning of a great love story. Imagine what it may be in a few years, in eternity!  Hosea 2:14 Therefore I am going to allure; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. 16 In that day, declares the Lord, you will call me ‘my husband’. 19 I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion. I will betroth you in faithfulness and you will acknowledge the Lord. 23 I will show my love to those I called’ Not my loved one’. I will say to those called ‘Not my people’, ‘You are my people’; and they will say ‘ You are my God’.  

Matthew 9:15

Revelation 19:7-10